This is the image of my son I will always have in my head. No matter how old he gets, no matter what he goes on to do, I will always see him as this sweet boy and my little prince. Maybe most Moms don't want to admit that, but I'm betting I have some company.
And now my little Prince is going into the Army. A lot of people ask us why or if we are happy about it. The answer is, yes, we are happy. No, it was not our first choice for him, but it is his choice. He has wanted to do this for as long as I can remember and believes it is what he is meant to do.How many people know that at age eighteen? Or ever really.
On the up side, we have had some time to get used to this idea. He signed his commitment last summer and is already doing Future Soldier Training once a week. We know that he will go to Ft. Benning, GA for Boot Camp and that he ships out on June 17, 2013. He will be in the Infantry and he wants to try for the Rangers. He dismissed my suggestion of Chaplain in seconds.
On the down side, well, my son, who texts me every day to let me know he arrived safely at school, is leaving home and we will have no communication for weeks. Then there's the whole war thing. Yes, I know that he could be in harms way every time he walks out the door of our suburban home. Yes I know we are supposedly pulling back from our fighting fronts in the Middle East. And still, it's there. I know he may be deployed and put into a dangerous situation. And right now, I cannot bear to think of that. I wonder how other Moms deal with this. Does it ever get easier or do you always have to stuff those thoughts and the very real possibilities of what could happen way deep down?
For now, I will appreciate every minute we have left with him home. And although he is a typical teenage boy, I know he feels it too. He takes a little more time with his brothers and sisters. He remembers to say 'I love you.' He knows. And maybe he too is stuffing some worries way deep down. He can do this, like we can, because he believes he is doing what he is meant to do and I am so proud of him for accepting the challenge. And we accept our challenge, to support him, encourage him and keep the negative thoughts to ourselves.