The concert was one of the best.
So, of course it's not a surprise that my moods and my music are all over the map since he left for OSUT. Thankfully, I have succeeded in at least one of my parenting goals. I wanted my kids to love music and to share it with them. They do and we do.
When he was little, we went through a country music phase and he knew all the words to Alan Jackson's 'Gone Country' and Toby Keith's 'Beer for My Horses.' Well that was short-lived, but there's been so much good music in our lives since then. When he was in high school, sometimes the tables turned and he got me to listen to and love songs that I probably would've never paid attention to otherwise. For instance, before his cross country meets, he used to listen to Eminem. Now there's quite a few Eminem songs on my playlist, along with Florence and the Machine, Disturbed, and Daft Punk. I in turn tortured him with J Lo, Bruno Mars and Pit Bull when I started going to Zumba classes.
So, as I wait, it is music that I turn to. Sometimes I know I will hear a song and cry and that it will be good for me because I will be able to cry and get on with my day. Other times, I listen to stuff that I know he likes and it cheers me up. It doesn't always make sense. The lyrics in this song don't really speak to me, but the mournful sound of Boy George's voice pretty much mirrors my feelings right now. There's been no tragedy here. My son is simply growing up and moving forward and I sit with a weird mix of emotions and when I listen to this song it is soothing.
I don't know if he will ever read this, but if so, this one is for you!